I'm not going to attempt to pull the Apprenticeship participants into enlightenment, because the group mind isn't stable enough. Some people would be overwhelmed and frightened by the self discovery. I will wait to do the enlightenment process in my 5 day seminars, or in private sessions, where everybody there knows what they are getting into. :)
I have feedback from one of the Trainers whom I took into enlightenment over Skype:
<font class="Apple-style-span" color="#8B00FF">I cannot put quite into words either. I feel disoriented but it is not bad. I feel extra sensitive. My sense are more alive....like more then 3 dimensional. I had a rash that cleared up pretty much overnight. I couldn't eat yesterday or at least could not figure out what I wanted to feed myself. Music is divine. Nature has an extra dimension. I can pick up on others emotions more clearly and I notice I know what others are thinking.
</font> <font class="Apple-style-span" color="#8B00FF">I cannot multitask and yet am very effective with my time. I have gone deeper into a flow. I am guided to do things that are way smarter then before (when to leave, where to drive, how to plan my day sort of thing) Emotionally is the most confusing because it seems I am feeling more intensely but I think it is more my true nature. I am not buffering my feelings. So I notice myself irritated, shy, scared, more but again more happy, at peace, loving. It arises then it goes. This surprises me the most, The emotional part. I am not detached at all...if anything I "react" more but I "think" it is more responsive and true to the moment. I think my mother was so unsafe with her passion that now I heal with my mother I can be my true emotional self.
</font> <font class="Apple-style-span" color="#8B00FF">I think the kids are noticing something more than my husband. Even my little one is testing me more powerfully but it has no effect on me and I think that brings her peace too...weird. The older one is just more calm...it seems. My husband and I had a talk about an area that is chronic for us and I was more strong but also more sensitive. Sorry I seem to use to many angles to try to communicate. My body is relaxed and when it isn't it is when I am having an emotions (feeling the stress of it) and when the emotions is done the body is relaxed again.
I had 2 major cognitive healing in our group session. With the healing of God/Oedipus I got big breakthroughs with my dad and with my mom.
I guess I feel wide open and don't have any sense of hurting someone or to hold back for what?!?!? Can't figure out exactly what is helpful or not so I just feel free to share without secrets, withholds...just free.
So I feel I have a bit more "superpowers" and extra deep flow, and there is a freedom...what surprises me the most is the emotional freedom and intensity I experience.
</font> <font class="Apple-style-span" color="#8B00FF">I imagine that is what would make my "environment" more powerful in session or workshop. I have been wanting that but I guess I had a certain control over my emotions to be appropriate etc... but then my energy could not fill up the room.
</font> <font class="Apple-style-span" color="#8B00FF"> </font> <font class="Apple-style-span" color="#8B00FF">I gave a coaching session tonight and it was a bit of a drag. Story telling. Tried to join but she went on and on and it was soooooooooooooooo boring. Nothing I did got her to feel, but finally there was a miracle. ... I got irritated and annoyed and glad I was getting paid. :) But the minute it was done it was done and it totally dropped from me, my mind and my body. So that is so freeing to me. </font>
xxxxxxxxx ♡Lency Spezzano
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"The group mind isn't stable enough"
Hahahahahahahaha!
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